umm awryte so after so many days of not checking in not writing nethign.. today i just feel lyke pouring out evrything thts been filling me in since so many days.... thts not soo special but ths how it just is..
sometimes.. it happens tht u look forward for certain things and before they even start u just have those high expextations n all lyke it will come out well.. it will end up being perfect n blah blah..
n then maybe tht u've over expectd or somthin or maybe u havntput enuff effort or the ryte effort in doing it.. it ends up to b a disaster or maybe not the way u wnted it to be..
wht do u do in such a cse.. blame who.. urself for not doing it ryte.. or maybe blame urself for expecting a lot out of it.. or blame people who have been diretly or idirectly been involved wiht wht u have been doing or planing out abt tht thing...
i dunno.. its dumb...
and then wen u just think ur old enuff to do things ur way and to have them the way u want them to be.. all of a sudden sumbdy jux wakes up tellin u tht THIS IS WHT U OUGHT TO BE DOING NOT WHT U DOING IS RYTE... huh dun u feel lyke yellin at the top of ur lungs wen its sumbdy who cant b rude with ... n slamming tht person in the wall or sumthin bad fo this sort .. wen its sumbdy u think u can do nethin with ...
sounds craxy huh... but this is how it has been.. n m soo amazed tht after lyke a mnth or so.. i actually felt soooo bad abt a thing n neva actually got to moi old state of depression instead i handled it a lil better then the way i usd to...
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